Wednesday, May 23, 2012

the next few weeks.

i don't know what got into me last night, but lately i have been having a realization that i am about to have a baby. the fear and anxiety is starting to take over. last night, i just cried myself to sleep. i think it just hit me that i'm about to be a mother. i know, i know. you're thinking, "haven't you had 9 months to process this?" not really. my first trimester i was so worried about keeping the baby in there that i didn't even think about being a mother. the second trimester, i thought i had a while to process it that it was insane to even think about it. now, i am nearing the end and i am totally freaking out.

the things that freak me out are kind of weird. of course, i am terrified of the actual laboring process. i DO NOT and CAN NOT handle pain very well. i want drugs as soon as i get into the hospital, and i know that is just not how the process goes. i've heard awful stories about labor, so i am not looking forward to that at all. plus, all these changes that are going on in my body are just weirding me out. i had to go to the new life center last weekend because i was having some stomach pain that just would not go away. they said though i was not dilated my cervix was starting to soften. that scared the crap out of me. i know it's nothing in comparison to what else is going to happen, but it is the beginning.

then, after i go through all of that scary labor stuff, i am going to be someone's mother. not just anyone's mother. the mother of a little girl. i always wanted a little girl. actually, everything i ever wanted as far as marriage and a family came true. but, now that i am actually having a little girl, i am scared out of my wits. some people say that little boys are little terrors. they are into everything and all over the place. but, those people did not know me when i was a little girl. i was a horrible child. but, other than that, i don't know anything about babies. my philosophy so far has been "not my baby, not my problem." your baby starts crying? i just hand him back to you. but, this is MY baby. i can't just hand it off to someone else. i have to change her diaper (which i have no idea how to do). i have to feed her. i have to make sure she's okay.

okay, so i'll stop this terrifying rant. but, just so you all know. i am truly terrified right now by all of these things. what are some things you were terrified about?






Monday, March 26, 2012

my busy life.

so, i have not been keeping up very well with my blogging...again. but, i have an honest excuse this time. we moved from texas back to our hometown in searcy, arkansas.

we moved last friday, and ever since then life has not slowed down one bit. i'm trying to get together things for lila and my doctor's appointments and all of this pregnancy stuff. so, i have been going nonstop since we got here.

i've been spending some time with family for the last couple of weeks too. it's been really fun to see how people react to my growing stomach. many of these people haven't seen me since last october before i even found out i was pregnant.

i promise i will be better at blogging from now on. i actually have stable internet! :)

27 weeks.

how far along: 27 weeks

total weight gain/loss: omg...i have already gained 20 lbs.

maternity clothes?: i have pieces but i try to mix my maternity clothes with regular clothes.

stretch marks?: not yet.

sleep: if i have my body pillow, i sleep like a bear in the wintertime.

best moment this week: feeling my little girl kick every time is absolutely amazing to me.

miss anything?: sushi. i technically can have it, but i'm holding out until the day i have her.

movement: yes, she already is a night lifer.

food cravings: popsicles! love them.

anything make you queasy or sick?: not anymore, thank goodness.

have you started to show yet?: oh most definitely.

gender predicition: i KNOW she's a girl. :)

labor signs: no and i will freak out when this becomes yes.

belly button in or out?: in, but it is becoming shallower.

wedding rings on or off?: engagement ring: off, wedding ring: getting there.

happy or moody most of the time?: i'm pretty happy MOST of the time. i have cranky days though.

looking forward to: my next appointment with the doctor i had before i moved to texas. :)

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

what i'm loving wednesday: anniversary edition.

i've been married for two years! well, yesterday was my anniversary. most people don't think is cause to celebrate but considering most of the people in my generation barely make it past the first year, i would say i've done pretty well. :) so, i thought to celebrate i would share some of my favorite things and memories from that day....what i was loving you can say. :)

* i absolutely love my engagement and wedding band. i'm sorta sad right now because the engagement ring doesn't fit my fat fingers anymore after pregnancy. that's okay. one day!

* i love that i had original ideas for my wedding. i was very clear i wanted it to be different. from the feather topiaries (above picture) to lady gaga being played during the wedding. i had a very unique wedding.

* i love my cousins. these are just three of us out of the five, but it's amazing to see us all grow up. it seems like only yesterday i was 5 years old holding chelsea like a baby doll.

* i love being a prichard. here's the immediate part of my prichard gang...although there are many more.  i love being an aunt, too! dream come true. but these girls make it easy.

* here' s a picture of me & my dad. i love that necklace. it was passed on to me for my wedding day  in memory of my grandma.

* i love this girl. i haven't kept in touch since marriage, so we've been off the wagon lately. but ,she was my maid of honor. she has been my best friend since the sixth grade. not many people find friendships that last that long...but i've been fortunate to keep a majority of mine.

* i love this picture of me & my mom. :)

* i am a total grandpa's girl. i LOVE my grandpa! he's probably the best grandpa a girl could ask for.


* of course, i love this man. :)
* and lastly, i loved my colors...my cake...my flowers. they were all me. :)

i can say that it has been a challenging two years, but some of the best years of my life so far. i know we have so much more to look forward to with our precious little girl coming into the world. here's to many more years with a great husband!

link up with jamie to tell us what you're loving this wednesday!


Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Nursery Concept

This is just a concept! But I had the hardest time making up my mind about this little girl's room! My mom is making the bedding because I'm so picky!

We are doing black and white prints with hot pink and lime green accents.

Friday, March 2, 2012

Busy Month!

I have been super busy these last few months with prepping for Lila. To top that off we are moving back to Arkansas to be closer to our families. So I haven't had much time for blogging lately.

But here's what is going on in my pregnancy so far:

-My sweet baby girl is almost 2 lbs.
That is so crazy to me!

-She is most active at night and early morning.

-She likes Justin Bieber and the song "I'm Sexy and I Know It." I have a feeling I have some fun times with her.

-I feel great. I'm experiencing though that the second trimester energy spurt has come and gone. Now I get tired putting on clothes!

Monday, February 13, 2012

Who run the world?

GIRLS!

And they run the Prichard family too. We are having a sweet baby girl!! She is the next in line to a lineage of beautiful girls! I'm not exaggerating! All of the girls in the hubs family are just gorgeous! They all have the same little figure and long legs. From the looks of it, our little Lila is the same!

We are so excited! When we went in this morning, EVERYONE was so sure that we were having a boy but me. When the tech said girl, we were shocked. And she checked twice! Let's say I had a lot of I told you so phone calls to make.

We are already in love and can't wait to see her! But first...shopping!!! :)